Dear Travis,

I haven't written you for over a year now. And i lay awake at night often and wonder if i should or if i ever will write you. The problem i have, is that you chose this. No one did this to you or made you make your poor choices. And because of that im angery. Your too fucking bright and you have so much potential. More like had... Prison? Really? Thats pathetic. You don't even care do you? You never did seem to care about the long term effects that your choices had. Well now you have several years to think about the stupid moves that landed you where you are.

I think the thing that makes me the most angery is that you haven't been here for any of us. at all. in the last 2-3 years. And Everyone is torn on how to feel. We love you. We miss you. But its getting to the point where it feels like you almost never existed. Your a pen pal to mom and sometimes dad. But neither of them really want to talk to you because every other word out of your mouth is a lie. I bet you haven't talked to Steph since the night kollen was born. And cody and sheyenne just laugh when they talk about you as their big brother. Your a horrible example. Not that im much better, but look at you verses me... Yeah. I win.

You weren't there for mom and dad when Grandpa Hales died. You weren't there for me and Kollen when Chris died. You weren't there for Cody when his daughter was born. You've missed birthdays and christmas and other holidays. You've lost opportunities and chances of a lifetime. You'll miss sheyenne's graduation form high school. Not that you care cause you missed your own too!

I wish that you were ready to pull your head out of your ass and see what you can still do with your life before you end up dead.
Wishing you smarts.
I love you dumb ass.
Shae